Keep it Simple Continuing the Journey

Every time I eat it is a choice for the selections I make.  If I make what I call a bad decision I learn from it and move on.  Well that is the goal anyway it doesn't always happen sometimes I linger in that silent place wishing I could take it back and thinking about the choice I should have made.  Does it make me stronger to make the right choices all of the time or am I just human?  If I eat according to plan than I am good, but is it fair to beat myself up when I don't?  What is the real issue is it the control and the strength I feel?  The biggest thing that the program I went on Pump and shred taught me is it changed my relationship with food it does not have to be good or bad.  It doesn't have to be feast or famine.  It is the balance that I now feel of getting back to basics, but sure I have set backs I still feel guilty at times.  The biggest difference is the acknowledgement of realizing of what I am doing to myself when I feel guilty breaking myself down.  I have dealt with food issues ever since high school maybe even Junior High this may root back to elementary school.  In High School I had to see a Nutritionist and even a Psychologist I had what they called an exercise eating disorder where any time I over ate or felt guilty I had to immediately work out and because of this I was driving myself crazy.  The Psychologist said it was my sense of control because I couldn't control other areas in my life such as my parents fighting.  At the time I thought this was absurd, but yes it is a sense of control.  The power is knowing that it does not have to be this way.  I don't have to feel guilty I really can have it all, but not all at once.  It is the balance that provides my freedom from this disgust and guilt.  The way that Pump and Shred helped me is it took the guess work away creating meal plans so I knew what I was eating.  After the program I have stuck with it, and I now know what a true portion size looks like so I don't overeat and I understand the difference.  I know that every meal will not be perfect, but I can always balance it out.  I know that diets don't start on Monday and every meal is a reset and a fresh start.  I can have dessert, I can eat carbs, and I don't have to feel bad about it what a concept.  I am not saying that the program is the only way find something that works for you; it is just an option.  I am letting you know that there is a freedom instead of dieting; change your lifestyle to fit your healthy.  I share my story because I know we all struggle with this in some ways or another, and I hope you understand the answer is to get back to basics and keep it simple!